Flourish

If you're like me and are DESPERATELY seeking new music, here's what I have on my iPod.
Tell me what's on yours that I should hear.

Favourite
Guilty Pleasure

The Academy Is...
AFI
Alesana
Alexisonfire
All That Remains
All Time Low
Anberlin
Armor for Sleep
As Cities Burn
Ashlee Simpson
As I Lay Dying
Atreyu
The Audition
August Burns Red
Augustana
The Autumn Offering
Avenged Sevenfold
Avril Lavigne
The Beatles
Bedlight for Blue Eyes
Between the Buried and Me
Blaqk Audio
Boys Like Girls
The Bravery
Breathe Carolina
Bright Eyes
Bullet For My Valentine
The Cab
Cash Cash
Chiodos
Circle Takes the Square
Cobra Starship
Crash Romeo
The Cure
Cute is What We Aim For
Daft Punk
Dance Gavin Dance
The Decemberists
The Devil Wears Prada
Does It Offend You, Yeah?
Drop Dead, Gorgeous
The Early November
Eighteen Visions
Emery
Enter Shikari
Evergreen Terrace
Everytime I Die
Eyes Set to Kill
Explosions in the Sky
The Fall of Troy
Fall Out Boy
Fatal Bazooka
Flyleaf
Forever the Sickest Kids
The Foxboro Hot Tubs
Foxy Shazam!
From Autumn to Ashes
Gavin Degraw
Gin Blossoms
Good Charlotte
Green Day
Hanson
Haste the Day
He Is Legend
Hey Monday
HIM
Hollywood Undead
It Dies Today
Jack's Mannequin
Jimmy Eat World
Job for a Cowboy
The Jonbenet
Katy Perry
Led Zeppelin
Marilyn Manson
Mark Ronson
Maroon 5
Matchbook Romance
Mayday Parade
Maylene and the Sons of Disaster
Mercy Mercedes
Metro Station
The Misfits
My Chemical Romance
Nirvana
Norma Jean
Odd Project
Panic At The Disco
Paramore
Phantom Planet
Pierce the Veil
Plain White T's
Portugal. The Man
Queen
Red Hot Chili Peppers
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
The Rocket Summer
Roses Are Red
Ryan Adams
Scapegoat
Scary Kids Scaring Kids
Shiny Toy Guns
Silverstein
Sky Eats Airplane
Something Corporate
Spoon
A Stained Glass Romance
Sum 41
Superchic[k]
Taking Back Sunday
U2
Underoath
The Used
Walls of Jericho
We the Kings
The White Stripes
Yelle
30 Seconds to Mars
36 Crazyfists

Ok so I actually shaved some off, since there's more than I thought there were..but those are the ones I actually listen to.

So yea. Give me some new music!

this is all just me guessing things about myself, i'm not sure how much is true..

i think i've been treating my relationships/lack thereof like a game of keep-away. i just like the chase, but i lose interest soo quickly. i approach guys with the attention span of a three-year-old. i've got flirting down to an art, i think i do it without even meaning to. just because i like the reaction. i'll hold eye contact a bit longer than usual, laugh a lot, do the subtle touches and bullshit like that. if they start to get too aggressive, i back off. because once i realize they are, in fact, interested, i move on to someone else. which is such a shitty thing to do. no lie, i hate myself when that happens and i really do feel bad, but i can't help it. it's the 'how-close-can-i-get-without-touching-game' you could call it. it's such a mindfuck, no wonder guys don't understand girls.

on the other hand, when i actually am interested in someone beyond this stupid flirting game, it seems like they're only in it to get laid. which, by the way, i do not/have never/will never go for. i may be a tease, but i'm not a whore.

i think this is weird: if i like a guy, i don't mind if he flirts with other girls. not obscenely touchy-feely, but harmless flirting. it's cute to watch, and they're obviously not disgustingly clingy. so..i know i'm asking a lot, but i want someone who is a flirt, because come on..flirting is fun. but then i also want them in it for more than just sex. an 'open relationship', maybe that's the right phrase (thank you, facebook). but i'm starting to question whether that guy even exists. but fortunately for me, i'm not willing to compromise. if i never find one, oh well..i tried.

honestly, i think it comes from the fact that i just don't trust guys. i can't say i've ever really been 'heartbroken', since i've never actually been 'in love'. but in the past, i've gotten too close (or what i consider too close) to guys who just don't give a shit, and it doesn't feel too great. and i'm sure most people have been there. so i'm not trying to inspire sympathy, and i'm not trying to turn this into platform to meet guys. i'm just saying, i'm trying to figure out what my problem is, or if it even is my problem.

what it comes down to: i'm worried i'm the only one who acts like that. because i don't think it's a good thing.

if you hit up bamboozle this past weekend, let me know what you thought :]

how PERFECT was the weather?! so much for rain. but honestly..after the pit at we the kings, i could've used a little rain. i was absolutely disgusting. these festivals are seriously like all-day endurance tests. no food, no water, really hot and lots of physical strain. fucking perfect.

ok so, i cheated a little. i dipped back into the red bull artist tent a couple times. but those five cans of sugarfree red bull probably made it worse. i don't even drink red bull..but i had to get something. it was a good idea though, i ended up running into alex gaskarth in the tent, meaning that my life is now complete and i can die happily no matter what. i sound like an obnoxious fangirl, but honeslty..have you seen the man's hair?

for the first time, i stood backstage for cobra starship. honestly, though..i was jealous of the people in the crowd. standing on the stage was never something i was interested in, but why pass up the chance? so, i can check that off my list. but i prefer being crushed in the crowd, screaming all the lyrics with everyone else, than standing on the stage fixing my hair and adjusting my sunglasses. not naming any names, but come on. you can go crazy at shows too, ladies. ;]

i don’t even remember some of the day. but i know i met some amazing people, saw even more amazing bands, and altogether had the most amazing sunday ever. i woke up monday absolutely loving this aftermath. my neck hurt, my back/abs/legs/arms were unbearably sore, i was sunburnt, and for two days i was exhausted and nauseous. but it’s so worth it.

warped tour is next..charlotte for me! if you're going to be there, hit me up.

☮♥